Last night, I slept at 11. And woke up at 7 (the next morning).

My Physics paper started at 8.30.

What a great way to dig my own grave

Trials are killing me.
I think that I just screwed up my Unit 2 for Chemistry.
How do you make Halogenoalkanes from alcohols?
Shit.

Just that when you thought that thing you've always wanted will always be out of reach. You suddenly get a glimmer of hope. Before everything comes crashing down. Wishing that you could forget what had happened.

Why the hell would you give that poor fella some hope. After all, all was lost. So why bait him with false hope. Can't you tell him that enough is enough??? Why put the poor dude through more pain? I mean, come on, let the poor bugger get on with his life and not get his hopes all down 'cause of some idiotic thing that made him hopeful again. Fuck you.

Reading Chee Eng's blog on what if's made me think on my own what if's. Wonder if my life would be any different. And I think it will. There are so many possibilities what would have happened.

It can be something like....
A. Go for NS anyway
B. Skip NS and start A-levels
C. Skip NS and start AUSMAT

Honestly, I really think that should I have chosen B or C, my life would have been by no doubt much happier than choosing A. But with the WMS gang being so cliquish, I wonder if I would make any good friends and be happy at MCKL. Heck, I could end up becoming much more unhappier. I don't know. But I would rather prefer B and C, but oh well, all of it is done.

Another possibility was instead of going in March...
A. Go in July instead of March
B. Go for Form 6

I don't really know about this. My mum was rather dissapointed that I chose to go in March. Since it was exactly 4 days after NS ended. She was the kind that disapproved of finishing your degree earlier or working young. Like those in the last few classes in my school, she rather that I bummed around til July. That would have meant that I go for Form 6 while waiting. But if I had gone for Form 6, chances are my mum would have forced me to stay, especially when she's very pro-Form 6. I don't know what to say about Form 6, but I can definitely say that I'll be very unhappy. Maybe that's why I wanted to go in March so badly. I've got no idea. But I don't know if it was the right decision, the wrong one. Who knows?

No idea what would have happened.

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I'm BACK!!!!!

Guess what?
The WiFi I used to steal back in my apartment is now secured.
Yup.
That means no free WiFi =(
Good timing anyway since I've got exams in two weeks. Yep. TWO WEEKS.
Nothing new besides that. Besides walking up the stairs now that the elevator in my apartment is now broken. Yay.
Will write something from time to time. But if its something interesting, that will have to wait. Until then.

No internet. I'll probably update when I have more access due to limited internet. Sorry yeah. Doubt anyone reads my blog anyway.